Abigail B. Calkin - The Soul of My Soldier
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In my work with adults and children, I have combined Precision Teaching and inner behavior since 1975. I also write in the literary arena. My published works include narrative nonfiction, novels, poems, and articles and books on education including behavior analysis. The serious quality of my work and writings belie my spontaneous sense of humor, laughter, and joy of life.

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The Soul of My Soldier
It was June 2009 at an inn on Kachemak Bay, Alaska. Donna, someone I had just met said, “Tell me about your camel.”   

My camel. I live in Alaska. She’s from Chicago, the wife of a poet, and it’s her first trip here. People ask me lots of strange questions. Do you have electricity? Running water? An indoor toilet? My camel—do I also have a camel?

Seeing my confusion, she touched her neck, “The camel. The camel around your neck.”

I touched my gold camel. “My husband brought it back to me when he came home from the Gulf War.” After the now-usual thank-you for his service, she asked how he was.

Fine. From this one. He was not fine after two years in Vietnam…

I wrote a unique military story using both poetry and prose. Through viewing my own life, I also reflect on the struggles and triumphs military families often face. My story shows how we, my husband and I as well as other military families, can turn challenges into a strengthening bond that connects the family’s present to their past and future.
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Book Reviews

“Abigail Calkin’s memoir is a beautifully written, deeply honest, and necessary book. This memoir blew me away.”

Abigail Thomas, memoirist,
What Comes Next and How to Like It; Three Dog Life

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“Calkin gives a unique and very personal account of what it is like, from a wife’s perspective, to live with a career soldier and veteran of three combat tours in two very different wars. Abigail Calkin recounts the issues faced and the coping skills acquired over a decades-long marriage. Her stories and descriptions are at once instructive and yet deeply touching in the unfolding. She takes the time to give her biography so we might understand where she is coming from in the relationship.

I served briefly in Viet Nam as a young aviator, but have seen the wounds, physical and otherwise, that war inflicted on many returning veterans. Much later I served as the Senior Director for Gulf War Illnesses on the National Security Council with responsibility for policy direction to improve DoD's response to the veterans returning from that war. No two wars are the same, yet the physical and mental anguish sustained in every one of them have remarkable similarities. Since the Vietnam War, our nation's armed forces have made great strides in recognizing the effects of PTSD, yet still we have not found effective ways to ensure all returning veterans find care sufficient to create coping skills to counter its effects, especially after separation from the Service. Abigail's book offers an insider’s view of how one person has managed. More importantly, she gives us a personal perspective of what a soldier's family, and especially the spouse, encounters in the relationship. This is a very different viewpoint than that normally encountered in reading about PTSD and one that has long been needed.”

Paul Busick,
Rear Admiral, USCG (ret)

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“When the guns fall silent and troops return home, soldiers carry with them an emotional mine field. Through intimate poetry and honest prose, Calkin ventures into this treacherous terrain with courage. The Soul of My Soldier reveals the tender attentiveness required to survive and heal.”

Hank Lentfer,
author, Faith of Cranes

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“Calkin deftly moves between prose and poetry in this affecting memoir of marriage. Ghosts of hard experiences weave through her words to reveal the power unresolved trauma wields on a relationship. Ms. Calkin reflects themes common to us all by lifting her emotional stones to expose what lies beneath.”

Nancy Hughes, Ph.D., LSCSW

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“Calkin delves deeply, recounting the last 50+ years of her personal life, including her own struggles with trauma, and how she has coped with her lingering symptoms. Uniquely, she intersperses poetry throughout the work, which adds dimension and intensity to her revelations of life as the spouse of a soldier. Masterfully, Calkin outlines her culturally rich American roots, depicting herself as a feisty, yet sensitive woman; and a brilliant professional. Her appreciation for the sacrifices of American service members appears as primal and tangible as her respectful adoration of her husband, an Army veteran. This memoir bleeds with juxtapositions such as a Quaker woman marrying a soldier, and an independent woman entering into a military culture – wherein reliance on others is critical to mission success. Themes of growth, adaptation, and acceptance emerge throughout the work, mostly in reference to her marriage and life as an Army wife. These themes exemplify the endurance of the American military family, and may resonate with those readers who “served” while their spouse wore the military uniform. Non-military readers may find this memoir insightful, while those in the military and veteran community may feel emboldened after reading. Calkin’s description of her own marriage appears to be a metaphor for military service itself, whereby persistence and commitment to something larger than oneself delivers intrinsic rewards in spades.”

Dr. Kent A. Corso,
OEF Veteran and President of NCR Behavioral Health

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“This is a powerful and poignant memoir. Right from the beginning, Calkin acknowledges that she will never understand what her spouse or other soldiers have gone through and she openly admits that this book is about her “quandary.” The stories and poems are one woman’s honest depiction of the challenges she has negotiated with her partner over the years. Her insights about PTSD and her sense of humor and compassion facilitate healing and learning. Calkin's desire to document her story may well offer those who have friends and family in the military the assurance that they are not alone. Above all, this book is a testimony of the love she has for Robert.”

Dee Horne,
Editor of Scroll in Space

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